dead

Why is life so colourful?

I'm dying. Sort of like suffocating/ asphyxiating, but less dramatic and more realistic. D:

I'm tired of everything, for now.

There's nothing that excites me anymore.

There's nothing that intrigues me.

Nothing. )':

cheerioseets, arty.

♪ Currently playing ♫
Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No 3, Opus 30 III Finale Alla breve

posing

I miss my Kaki Blue friends. :)
Shot at The Saffron, Sentul.

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I wanna treat my mom on her birthday. With my first paycheck! :)

Yeah, I haven't used the money I got from Kaki Blue yet. HAHA. :D

(Talking to thin air:) Sorry for the lack of updates. Been one hell of a week HAHA. Or rather, the new year, 2010 has been really bad for me. It's tiring, and stressful.

I'm stressed over the fact that I haven't gotten a single offer from any universities that I applied to.

I'm stressed also because that I have to send three different portfolios to three other universities that JUST requested them. Due date is in four weeks. Wtf. D:

I'm stressed because I'm single and I will be celebrating Single Awareness Day on Valentines Day and CNY. :O

I'm stressed because my parents fought this morning over me. )':

I'm stressed because I'm not asleep even though it's like, 2AM and I'm supposed to wake up at 8.30AM!

I'm stressed because I'm stressing over all the wrong things. HAHA.

Anyways, I was looking through my pictures. This was part of a picture series that we took at Jack's place. Swam, then ate pizza at his apartment. :)

Tripods are so convenient. HAHA. :D

Yes, we were acting. Posing, rather. :D
THIS PICTURE MAKES ME HAPPY.

cheerioseets, arty.

shut

Shut up already! D:
Stop telling me what to do, and what not to do! =(

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Yi Wenn got that constipation bun for me when she went to Hong Kong last week. :)

I haven't been sleeping well recently. I'll try a different approach to sleeping today.

I'm not looking forward to anything recently. I'm in that phase again. The one where I don't effing care about anything anymore. I hope I snap out of this soon, though. It really is a drag.

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What do you do when you meet someone you found really cute?

I would really want to know. The new intake is giving me a headache. I'm just gonna go straight to the point:

I like this person who I found was cute. But then...

People tell me that looks aren't everything. Sides, I don't really believe in love at first sight. It's scary. Disturbing too. Then what's the point of stalking good-looking people?

I'm giving up, it doesn't matter
What I think, what I do
Because it will not suffice
To get me what I want.

I suck at poems.

cheerioseets, arty.

shy

This morning. Before the hair cut. xD
I haven't been smiling a lot in pictures recently. I wonder why. :D

Zomg. I'm happy yet not very happy. I was happy that I had a great time chatting with lotsa people last night. I'm unhappy because my eyebags aren't going away cause I've been sleeping at 2 every night/ morning.

I was waiting for 3 hours for my mom at the hairdresser today. Well, yeah, I had my hair cut, which is pretty much nothing like the picture I took this morning. It's almost as short as when I had my hair shaved off last year. Sort of like that. :D

Anyways, I was waiting for my mom, so I went to Popular to get some stationeries for my brother and myself. THEN THEN. I saw this book, "How to Feel Confident."

It was like, "Shit, I've just gotta read that book!"

..and so I did. All these while I've been worried about what others might think of me when I'm walking past them, but in actuality, they, too, are worried about what I think of them. I'm just gonna believe in that. Don't spoil it for me. :)

The book also said some stuff about asking myself questions during my absolute free time. I've been doing this for the past few months, actually. Now that I've finally found a book explaining why I've been doing this, it actually makes me feel happy that I'm not the only one feeling this way. Maybe it's the shy part of people that the author emphasizes on.

The author also mentioned that even if someone appears to be an extrovert, greeting people when they first meet them and do not appear shy at all (LIKE MEEE), they actually do suffer a lot inside. Everything that the author used to describe these "people" was actually applicable to myself. D:

So yeah, people.

I'M SHY.

Anime cosplayers. Not shy, but very shy. :D

cheerioseets, arty.

try

The sky is a lovely sight. Outside my window. It was a Sunday morn. :)

It's not that rare of a sight. I think that we really miss out the beautiful things in life. If you can miss out these big, beautiful cloud formations in the sky, can you imagine the small, gorgeous things that we have easily ignored?

I'm not one to tell people how to enjoy their lives and all, but I guess appreciating the small things in life is important as well. I've been ignoring lotsa things recently. The people around me especially. I'm not sure why either.

I don't wanna come up with a whole list of reasons as to why I'm being anti-social to some people and others not. I guess I'm just picky. I'm pretty *shy* when it comes to talking to people I want to talk to. It's either, 1) I think they're too good-looking to be my friends, or 2) I'm just scared they'll have a bad impression of me.

I think I try too hard sometimes.

cheerioseets, arty.