bokeh

Original bokeh #1. :D

I iz tried new bokeh techniques. Lo and behold!

Failed ♥ bokeh #1.

Failed ♥ bokeh #2.

I need a new lens. I'm aiming for a Nikkor 35mm f/1.8. Original price iz RM900, but maybe I can get it cheaper? :D

If not, I'll just get a 50mm f/1.8. :)

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Hectic week, and I'm still not done with my UCL assignments. Sighh.

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I've been having suicidal thoughts. All because I'm feeling lonely. Kill me please, someone. I'm begging you! D:

It sucks to have a crush on someone. No, seriously. Kill me, please.

I hate crushes.

Kill me, please. ._.

cheerioseets, arty.

cookies

Hint #1

I've been working hard for my UCL assignments thingy. :P

Guess what theme this is. Hint #1 is above.

The second one is below. :D

Hint #2

Guess the theme! :)

cheerioseets, arty.

kill

I bet Mew Mew is saying,
"Oh God, kill me please."

I wanna be Mew Mew and die like that. In her arms. And I can blame her then. :D

cheerioseets, arty.

suicide

Mew Mew's profile picture.

I feel like making a Facebook fan page for Mew Mew. That will show just how much I love Mew Mew (and not how much of a Facebook addict I am). Mew Mew is terribly cute, despite being a rescued stray.

I don't know when's her birthday though. Should I know? Does that make me a bad owner? I think I'm a bad pet keeper. I don't take care of her. My brother/ mother does. *bad*

Oh well. :)

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I fruitfully spent eight hours in college today. TCSHMUN Mock Conference. Fail. D:

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Char. :D

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Kill me, I feel like dying. I actually came up with a list of methods to kill myself. Let's see if they work. If all else fails, I'll get Itchy and Scratchy to kill me.

My dad would so kill me for using the word, die, so many times during Chinese New Year. ^^" Oohh! Another method to kill myself! LOL

Arthur's guide to killing yourself

Least painful way of dying: Channel car exhaust into your car and take a nap.

Messiest way of dying: Slitting any artery in your arm. Especially the ones near your elbow or wrist. Death within seconds.

Least messiest way of dying: Eat sleeping pills and never wake up.

Most suffering way of dying: Drowning.

Most painful way of dying: Jumping off a building and landing on concrete/ spikes.

Most sadistic way of dying: Slitting all non-major artery/ veins in your body and wait till you bleed to death.

Saddest way of dying: Seeing your loved ones around you cry and you're paralyzed with a life threatening cancer.

How a musician wants to die: Listen to a badly played violin concerto with horrible piano accompaniment and proceed to take a gun out and shoot self in the head.

How a photographer should kill himself: Use an external flash and blind himself till his eyes start bleeding and wait to die.

How a gamer commits suicide: They don't even have to try.

How computer geeks try not to die: Nourishing self with nearest snack such as but not limited to: Cans of coke, cookies and Corntoz.

How Arthur wants to die: Eat sleeping pills and never wake up.

I should go and buy a carton of 'em sleeping pills now. :)

cheerioseets, arty.

coke

Life's a sad can of Coke left alone in the back of the fridge.

..says me. *emo*

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open

Mew Mew welcomes wealth, too, now! :D

I think I'll go by this new principal of mine:

If you can survive one day without Facebook, you'll probably go through your daily life without having obsessively going to the nearest computer to check your notifications.

Among other online social networking side effects that you can overcome by not logging on to Facebook, you will also be less stalker-ish and actually learn how to socialize with people again. :D

Arthur Chia

I will try it out for a few days, I guess.

I realized that every time I do not get any notifications when I log on to Facebook, I'd be so depressed the entire day. I don't know why I feel that way, and I do not like the feeling at all. So, I'm opting for the above method of not logging on to Facebook which is, literally, a life-sucker.

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Chinese New Year have been great so far, met nice nice people and got nice nice ang paos too. I just got back from my dad's hometown in Parit Jawa, Muar, Johor. :D I slept throughout the entire trip which includes the time I spent at their house as well. I feel bad, but I was just so tired! Can't blame me! HAHA.

The jam coming back to KL was bad as well. Stupid police had to block the entire road just to catch people speeding on the emergency lane. Like, wtf, right? D:

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On a totally different note, I've been trying to reconnect with my friends that I haven't spoke to for a very long while. I seriously blame Facebook for this. No more Facebook. I shall use MSN instead! HAHA.

So, if you wanna catch a movie or anything, I'll try to go out with youuuuuuuuuu. *hint hint*

:3

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Okay, I've got Sky Adventure Club meeting tomorrow at college at 11. I think I'll go earlier to draft ideas for my assignment for the UCL interview. ^^

Mm, I think I'll put up the email I got from them. :D

SHOULD I?

Rawr, anyways, open house tomorrow! Can't wait to see Kelvin again! :)

cheerioseets, arty.

cousins

Shh. We're cousins. :D

1) I had a rather pleasant Chinese New Year up till now. Uncle's open house yesterday and I just got back from my aunt's open house, made a new friend. A guy named Wern Juan. xD

2) I watched Small Big Soldier with my parents and relatives during Valentine's Day night. That movie with Jackie Chan in it. :D

3) I have not started on my portfolio crap yet. I'm not even bothered by it. How laaaaa? I haven't even been replying my e-mails, especially the universities that sent me those e-mails. D: D: D:

4) I had a nice Single Awareness Day yesterday. Ended on a good note. :)

5) I'm going to sleep HAHA. Tired. :D

6) My picture quality is reducing. )';

cheerioseets, arty.

chinese

Happy Chinese New Year! :)

Warm greetings and abundant blessings for a very prosperous and happy Chinese New Year! :D

Yummy yee sang. *chew*

Even Mew Mew is celebrating! :D

Doesn't matter if you're far abroad, technology will bring us together! :D

..and laughter is needed anytime, anywhere, during Chinese New Year.

I hope this will mark the beginning of a very good new year for me. Everything from A2 exams to university applications, I wish everyone luck in everything you do! :)

On another unrelated note, I've been scheduled an interview for UCL next month. I need to bring (1) A portfolio, (2) Five assignments given by them and (3) (hopefully) A good impression. :)

Wish me luck! :D

cheerioseets, arty.

accident

R.I.P.
Despair Bun
February 2010 ~ February 2010

1) I got into an accident today. ._.

2) On another note, I haven't been visiting my own blog on a daily basis. I'm so ashamed of myself. Hell, I don't even get one Cbox message a day anymore. =(

3) Maybe I should update more often.

5) Maybe not. D:

6) MATHS TEST TOMORROW.

7) Aiyo, I'm still having sleepless nights. It's not exactly sleepless, but I wake up feeling worse than before going to sleep. D:

8) I'm still emo-ing over that stupid crush thing. WTC! D:

8.1) WTC stands for What The Crap. :)

9) I've been using the emo-face emoticon a lot recently. It's the one that's gonna appear at the end of this line. D:

10) I feel a tad bit happier when I blog with a list. :D

11) MATHS TEST TOMORROW.

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Tonight, marks a new colour of emotions to be understood.

By the way, did you know that screaming into a pillow really loudly really helps letting out your frustration? I feel liberated. Really really liberated. Well, the tears that comes after the shouting needs to be taken care first, of course. :)

I feel as though I can achieve anything as long as I try. I really do. So, I'll bring up the courage and I will do what I need to do to stop this 'madness'. :D

A million and one,
Each vivid and clear.

I struggle to understand what I'm supposed to do, the frustration that I built up for nothing. The answer is simple, yet I made it so complicated. If things weren't supposed to happen, then so be it.

- - - End emo - - -

I'M HAPPY.
ARTHUR IS HAPPY. :)

cheerioseets, arty.

dead

Why is life so colourful?

I'm dying. Sort of like suffocating/ asphyxiating, but less dramatic and more realistic. D:

I'm tired of everything, for now.

There's nothing that excites me anymore.

There's nothing that intrigues me.

Nothing. )':

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♪ Currently playing ♫
Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No 3, Opus 30 III Finale Alla breve

posing

I miss my Kaki Blue friends. :)
Shot at The Saffron, Sentul.

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I wanna treat my mom on her birthday. With my first paycheck! :)

Yeah, I haven't used the money I got from Kaki Blue yet. HAHA. :D

(Talking to thin air:) Sorry for the lack of updates. Been one hell of a week HAHA. Or rather, the new year, 2010 has been really bad for me. It's tiring, and stressful.

I'm stressed over the fact that I haven't gotten a single offer from any universities that I applied to.

I'm stressed also because that I have to send three different portfolios to three other universities that JUST requested them. Due date is in four weeks. Wtf. D:

I'm stressed because I'm single and I will be celebrating Single Awareness Day on Valentines Day and CNY. :O

I'm stressed because my parents fought this morning over me. )':

I'm stressed because I'm not asleep even though it's like, 2AM and I'm supposed to wake up at 8.30AM!

I'm stressed because I'm stressing over all the wrong things. HAHA.

Anyways, I was looking through my pictures. This was part of a picture series that we took at Jack's place. Swam, then ate pizza at his apartment. :)

Tripods are so convenient. HAHA. :D

Yes, we were acting. Posing, rather. :D
THIS PICTURE MAKES ME HAPPY.

cheerioseets, arty.

shut

Shut up already! D:
Stop telling me what to do, and what not to do! =(

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Yi Wenn got that constipation bun for me when she went to Hong Kong last week. :)

I haven't been sleeping well recently. I'll try a different approach to sleeping today.

I'm not looking forward to anything recently. I'm in that phase again. The one where I don't effing care about anything anymore. I hope I snap out of this soon, though. It really is a drag.

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What do you do when you meet someone you found really cute?

I would really want to know. The new intake is giving me a headache. I'm just gonna go straight to the point:

I like this person who I found was cute. But then...

People tell me that looks aren't everything. Sides, I don't really believe in love at first sight. It's scary. Disturbing too. Then what's the point of stalking good-looking people?

I'm giving up, it doesn't matter
What I think, what I do
Because it will not suffice
To get me what I want.

I suck at poems.

cheerioseets, arty.