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Hello there, dear blog. :)

I feel so ashamed of myself for not being able to constantly blog about my life. I really wonder what made me stop blogging. Maybe it was my A Levels exams? Or was it just simply because I lost my mood to blog or all emotions whatsoever (which really happened, btw, when I was working in Coffee Bean).

Have you ever experienced a point in your life where you were just simply on autopilot? Now, what do I mean by autopilot is that you are so used to a very sequential, mundane routine that you have to follow everyday and thus not actually thinking when you're carrying out certain actions. It happened to me this year, and as hard as I may have tried, I just couldn't get my brain working at all.

..which I think was the main reason why I stopped blogging. Maybe I couldn't cope with my exams, the pressure from my fellow classmates who are geniuses. Maybe I'm just not suited to be "the best of the best" which I have always imagined myself to be.

I work hard. I strive. Most of the times I succeed, seldom I'd fail and often I'd be super upset over the failure.

But

Now, I am a first year undergraduate at University of Bath studying Architecture.

Now, I am a proud student of the esteemed Architecture and Civil Engineering department at University of Bath, for which, Architecture is ranked second in the whole of UK, second to Cambridge.

[Source: ONE and TWO]

Now, I am spending most of my time, having fun designing in design studios. Something which I longed to do for a very long time now.

Now, I am also able to score full marks for my Structures test just now, which consists of a mixture of Mathematics: Applied Mechanics and Physics.

This is bliss. Pure bliss. :)

Apart from that, I brought Domokun along with me to the UK. It accompanied me throughout the entire flight here. Which was freaking long, mind you. Six hours from KL to Dubai and then another seven hours from Dubai to London. After landing in a foreign country without your parents' supervision, I got extremely scared, but Domokun was there to comfort me. :)

My family was there with me at the airport that day. It was a night flight, so I kinda spent my entire Saturday out with my brother and mother. Then we just talked, and talked, and talked. Until it was time for me to go.

It was good, I suppose. I've never seen my dad so teary-eyed before. I didn't know it would be this difficult, saying goodbye. They always say that I love you are the hardest words to say, but I beg to differ. When you're departing with your loved ones, try saying goodbye. It hurts, knowing that you'll probably not gonna be able to see them in person for the next three to four months, but for me, it's about ten

I couldn't stop crying. I looked back, and I saw them waving goodbye to me. I held back the sobs, the tears. As I passed through the gates to get to the departure lounge, I took out my phone and texted my mom. She was replying till I got on the plane. The entire time, I was busy taking tissues out of my bag pocket and wiping away the tears that just wouldn't stop. Annoying. Really annoying.

Well, the flight was pleasant. I met a lady flying to Dubai. She's Malay but she looks really Chinese. She was wearing a scarf (tudung) but still looked really Chinese. She was nice. I was glad that I made a 33-year old friend. HAHA. But still, she was great company to sit beside with on a six hour flight. She was definitely better than a 3-year old baby kicking on my seat for the seven hour flight! D:

Haha, damn. At least now I Skype with my family every Sunday. Because I spend a lot of my time in the studios. It keeps the homesickness at bay. :)

I can't wait to go back to Malaysia in June next year. :)

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I met a lot of different people. My flatmates are amazing people. I learnt so much about the UK, like places they're from and the different slangs that they use. It's pretty much like the different dialects they have at different provinces in China. It's super cute when my Hull flatmate speaks HAHA. :)

But yeah, the Malaysian society here, aka BAMSA, Bath Area Malaysian Singaporean Association is pretty cool. :D

Got cute Malaysiaaaaaan. :)

Until next time, dear blog. Hopefully sometime soon. :D

cheerioseets, arty. :)